I don't want to be me right now

so I can I possibly want you?

5 and a half months in...

...and I finally found my theme song for 2010. "In a Mellow Tone" sung by Ella Fitzgerald perfectly evokes the way I’ve been living and the way I plan to carry out the rest of this 24th season of my life.

In a mellow tone
Feeling fancy free
And I'm not alone
I've got company

Everything's ok
The live long day
With this mellow song
I can't go wrong

In a mellow tone
That's the way to live
If you mope and groan
Something's gotta give

Just go your way
And laugh and play
There's joy unknown
In a mellow tone

(scat)
In a mellow tone
(bridge)

In a mellow tone
Feeling fancy free
And I'm not alone
I've got company

Everything's ok
The live long day
With this mellow song
I can't go wrong

In a mellow tone
That's the way to live
If you mope and groan
Something's gotta give

Just go your way
And laugh and play
There's joy unknown
In a mellow tone
In a mellow tone
In a mellow tone

They are the type...

...to charm the pants off the rest of us, if we're lucky.